Rest in power ❤️

The weather is cold..I bet it’s all parts of this land and I happen to spend the whole weekend at home(something so unlike me)…and not to mention home alone😑…but I think I needed it,am still trying to connect some dots here and nothing’s adding up,just as I expected…but you know that string of hope you cling to,just because it gives you some consolation,but anyway, long story short, Saturday was a lonely day,a sad one actually….to amend for that,I offered kuenda soko today after church,it was 5pm …..I opt to foot, can’t say why but somehow I thought it might lessen something tightening my heart everyday,I just assumed……
…….it’s already 8pm and insanely I decide to walk home,it’s roughly a 40mins walk and the dark is just beyond scary,but I got company,the crickets ofcos😊…..after all that,my heart’s still heavy but I feel alive a bit and I have had some fresh breathing,but I still can’t contemplate what living is….
………….how did we sign up for death??? why is grief so selfish and demands to be felt??? why do we have to balance between happiness and sadness??? can’t life be about one?? either happy or sad??? Is this balance thing a must?? we didn’t even ask for it or got a chance to chose?? Why does it have to be so??? What really is this?? Can’t we even have an opinion??
Grief is a clowned psychopath who laughs as we weep…..am at a point of surrender, I think I have reached my end nerve,…..this is just above me,
Death , one day you will die too,and I hope I will squeeze your throat and watch as your body shrinks ……
🥂 to the souls who left before us 🥂
It’s ironical
One day you’re energetically running up an unending flight of stairs; the next a doctor is congratulating you for finishing a bowl of soup. If you’re healthy and free, don’t miss out on the beauty of the miracle that Is the now. All of this is yours , yet none of it is. How could it be? Look around you . Everything is fleeting. ~Lilacmwesh🔥

~Lilacmwesh🔥

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